Ooh I Don't Arf Feel Rough

After not such a bad night I woke up feeling absolutely awful. I tried taking a little less MST (morphine sulphate) for my pain control for a couple of days and I have to admit it's not working. I'm online to help my lad out (printing off some homework photos while he is at a rugby tournament), while all I want to do is crash out.

I'm cooking food with the help of my daughter but she's not helping very much. My neighbour is banging and crashing, sawing and drilling!!!!! ARRGGHH it is a nighmare and I have such a headache.

So that is my entry today.

Feel cr*p.

I Love You Baby

My son is a cracking little sportsman but it seems there is a little sh*t at his school who is in the year above and a prefect and thinks it is OK to bully my son. Not only has he picked on him every Friday during chore time after lunch but he is now trying to demean him in front of the other members of the football squad. My son is being placed in defence (the only player in defence) and then being told he is cr*p because being only 136cms tall he cannot stop the other players getting past him.

What are we suggesting?

It's a difficult one because my darling lad is 11, nearly 12 and needs to learn how to handle difficult behaviour. He will no doubt meet sh*ts throughout his life and so we as parents have to help him solve this dilema. My husband has told him to learn from this. To watch and see how the other boys play and he will become a better player. My son may not like defence but what if he is forced into a defensive position in a game? His experience will count then will it not? My son's school team is not a great team and they have only won when he plays! I would suspect my husband's word are right and my lad will probably end up on his own in defense judging by their past performance. That bully may have helped my son out.....If only that bullyboy was not such a moronic little horror. I have also suggested that if it is getting too much for my son to cope with that he speaks to the coach and asks him to keep an eye on things. My son is so sensitive though and hates talking to teachers so whether he will is another matter. I may have to step in if it gets too much but I want him to deal with this first and hope he copes well.

Boy tips will be helpfull though.

PS to anyone I have not emailed with my new email address. I will get around to you. The old one is not working properly and I have not been receiving emails nor have emails been getting to their destinations. This has been a problem for months but I don't know how big a problem and am only just finding out the extent of it - YAHOO eat your heart out.

Future Posh Schools

Went to look at a possible senior college for my son on Saturday. I never thought I'd be looking at public schools and now I am considering THREE!

The one we viewed on Saturday has excellent facilities and excellent staff and there is no reason why we should not choose this school The only real reason not too is it's size is larger than we would like. The school would say it is an advantage, we would say it is a disadvantage. We will be looking at the most likely choice on Saturday and then our son's third choice but our daughter's number one sixth form choice, in two weeks time. I'm looking at finances to see how the hell we can afford to put two kids into public schools because my daughter wants to weekly board at sixth form. We need to presume our daughter will gain a place without a scholarship and the same goes for our son. It's a heady task.

Passwords

I'm always forgetting my passwords and as I'm changing them all the time it's a nightmare! I've currently banned my daughter from the computer but alas she had guessed my old password, (so my spy told me). I've had to re-adjust that one now and this means having to remember yet another new set of words......... It never ends.

My daughter thinks she has finally tidied her room to my satisfaction. Whether she has or not is another matter? I'm sending my spy up now........Let's see? This has taken her 14 years (lol) .....AHA it is reasonably tidy at long last! Apart from money on the floor which could give her enough to move out and put down a mortgage on a small flat. This has laid buried under the rubbish she's left on the floor for the past months.....Yes she is a messy pup.

So it's Sunday and my son has had his rugby training this morning. Next week the coach is giving him a lift to an away match as hubby is working. I can't do the driving and only wish I could. I'm going to get that driving lesson in hand controls and sort this out. Maybe then I'll be able to get myself to the hydro pool, my son to away matches and my daughter to her riding lessons. It is such a frustration.

Pain monster is behaving and I have to get in contact with a lot of people. I've been having problems with my email and it seems sometimes my emails are not arriving? There may be a problem with me not getting emails as well as this has happened before. I think it may be time to move away from my current email supplier and move on with a newbie? Need to sort that out today.

Governor Visits And All That

Why am I doing all this? Do I enjoy it? I suppose I do most of the time but I don't know if it's what I'm really cut out for for my much longer. I know I will need something else in my life if I let it go though.

My son is moaning about something or nothing.......Sorry but sometimes I wish that my kids would just learn to stand up for themselves. Oh that sounds cruel.....I'm tired and fed up with it all. It is always the same way every Friday. One minute good news then a bad bit followed by something else bad............Oh bloody hell. The good news is that he enjoyed his footie match the other day in which they thrashed the other school 8-O.

I love my children very much, very much indeed.

Out Of Mouths Of Babes

I've been on a Governor visit today and what an interesting one it was.


I visited the school council where we talked about health eating and chatted with an ex angry teacher......or should I say I let her vent her spleen? Sometimes it's good to do that but the problem was that I think the Headteacher may of heard some of what she said? I know this teacher is a bit of a nightmare and but I didn't know I was going to get pulled back by her and the Headteacher was not a happy man.....I know either he overheard OR he is not happy that I am aware of some documentation he did not want me to have?
I'm not going to give in to petty sulks and if someone has something to say then they should say it!

One thing though last term.......I nearly gave up being a school governor on more than one occassion. Am I ready to throw the towel in? Do I really want to put up with this sort of behaviour? The answer is no. I'm an adult not a child. Seems those kids are more mature than their teachers sometimes.

Rest In Peace Neighbour

My neighbour passed away. He was 68 and a dear man who was injured while serving in the navy many years ago. Since then he would shout out in the garden and confuse people who'd think he was crazy but we'd know he was perfectly sane, just affected by that injury and harmless and lovable. His life's journey is now at an end and he is now with his father, mother and sister in that great big heavenly place. He will be buried next week along side them all in his final resting place.

But has left behind his aunt who he lived with and his carer who I've been speaking with this morning. His carer felt that my neighbour was more like a father to him and is devastated by his death and at sixes and sevens not knowing what to do? He stayed with my neighbour in the hospital thinking all was going to be OK. His carer went home however at 1am he recieved a phonecall to say "get back" My neighbour had a massive heart attack and was probably unaware of what was going on. I hope so as he would have been very frightened. The staff had allowed his carer to stay late because it kept my neighbour calmer......Now I shall miss the shouting and his 6am walks to the shop, especially when he forgets where he lives and insists on coming into my house!

My friend's gran is 93 and she told me last week that she too was at death's door. I should suspect that her gran is now no longer here? It is so sad that death greets us all but sadly we all must die some day. My cousin said when he was about seven that "if everyone lived forever there would be no room for all the new babies who would need to be born". Classic words from a small child but quite true.

Little Maddie McCann was only 3 (if she is dead) when she lost her life. I hope she is alive but it looks as though she is not. I don't know how I feel about that.......There is mounting evidence and now which ever newspaper you read tells you a different story. One states that the hair found in the car is from a child who is dead the other says something else? What is true?
I don't get it anyway? That part of the story makes no sense. How did the parents keep the child secret for all of that time? Where did they keep her? It sounds like the Portuguese are clutching at straws to me. Maybe the McCanns DID play a part in their own daughter's death but this part of disposing of the body sounds silly and comical when it needs to be serious.

Life is so precious. Whether you live for 70 years or 70 minutes you need to make the most of it. Today my pain is lower for the main part. I'm making the most of it.

Sleepy Day

I am exhausted!

I'm so tired from too much medication over the past few days and too much emotion . Our poorly bunny is fine now and over his adventure to the vets and my son is gradually getting over his guilt.

Today is orchestra day and my daughter is back to playing her clarinet reguarly. I've got to wake myself up for that!

Sick Wabbit

Mr Jimjim the bunny is very poorly. I went out to him a little over an hour ago and he was quiet and nothing like the usual mad Jimjim we know. Normally I'd call his name and he'd play a trick on me and run around and look at me with his bunnyeyes and I'd give in with a treat. He's a super rabbit and right now I'm frightened something is very wrong with him.

My son had rather foolishly not left Jimmy with any water OR FOOD! I could not believe my eyes. Jimmy was obviously dehydrated and to keep him calm I put him back in his hutch rather than leaving him in his run. I've been feeding him water and tomato juice with a pipette. He hates the tomato juice but a rabbit expert friend says it is a great booster for bunnies.

Jim hasn't been getting any better and so I phoned the vet nurse for advice but really I wanted Jim seen by the vet as my instincts are frightened right now. I don't want to lose 'Mr Jimjim'.......He's part of our family! The poor bunny is so weak and it is not just because my son didn't leave his water out, I don't know if my son is using an excuse but he tells me Jim didn't eat much of his food from yesterday which is why he gave him more today; shame he left the food in Mr Jimjim's hutch! Also we know our lovely boybunny is definately not well when he hasn't eaten his treat and it has been left in his hutch.....Something is really wrong.

I know there are many things wrong in the world, People dying, Maddy's parents being suspected of involvement of her death, (how I feel on that I'm not sure?), but all I care about is a six month old rabbit.

Fight Mr Jimjim and say "Hello" (Sorry joke we have in our house) to Lulu when you get home. We all love you very much and mistakes will never happen like this ever again.

Jane Tomlinson Rest In Peace

Jane Tomlinson who was diagnosed as terminally ill with breast cancer seven years ago, has finally lost her battle for life. She was 43.

Jane was a married mother-of-three, who had raised a staggering £1.75m in a series of gruelling challenges in the last seven years since she was told she only had six months at the most to live. In June this year she was further recognised for all of her hard work and given a CBE for 'charitable services'.

I don't know what I would do if I was told I had a terminal illness? I have watched Jane's past seven years evolve on the TV screen and newspapers and I was hoping that maybe one day a cure would be found to save her. She deserved that. She was prepared to battle so why wasn't something there for her? She was an incredible woman and an inspiration to everyone with her indomitable spirit and amazing smile even though she must have been in desperate pain.

Jane definitely deserves those Angel wings. She was a truly wonderful woman

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/2585103.stm

School Dinner Cheese Meltdown For Anyone?

400,000 kidlets have stopped eating in school canteens since the new healthy school system has been introduced. No wonder so many look like this fat suited version of Jamie here!

The problem is it has only been two years and you can't expect teenagers to change their whole diet if all they have at home is junk food. My son who has only just left primary school also said that children were swapping to packed lunches and that included those entitled to free school meals because they wanted burgers!

What sort of society do we have when kids are dictating over their parents as to what they are going to eat? I'm not being funny here but I tell my kids what they are having for dinner and they eat it. If they don't eat it then there is nothing else till the next meal. Yes of course somtimes I make cheeseburgers but they are homemade ones and I know what is in them. My kids also sometimes eat sweets but not all of the time!

Sadly most kids seem to want to stuff their faces full of crap. I hope healthy meals continue because healthy hearts, brains and bodies are more important for their futures.

Bad Night's Sleep But BRIAN won Big Brother 8

I slept fitfully last night. Too many things on my mind plus I was in a lot of pain. I imagine the pain increase is stress related as there cannot be any other reason?

I watched BB8 and was thrilled to see my favourite Brian win BB8 however I was strangely saddened that the twins could not share the win. They are sweet girls and I had felt too sweet to win but no one had nominated them throughout the who 13 weeks so they must of had something great within them. The bookies had the twins winning and I was shocked to see Brian claiming the title but as I said very happy. Some said he was putting on an act? I say I don't care. Gameplaying is all part of BB and if you play it well and do not hurt anyone else then surely that is OK? I don't think Brian was playing games anyway; I think he was genuinely stupid. (Said in the nicest possible way).

Arise King Brian, Yogurt Top of Essex.

I shall take it easy today and not do very much. My back is aching and I feel hellish. Oh Joy, wish I had £100k to make me feel better like good old Brian has - Plus looks like he has one of the twins on his arm too. Life could not be better for that Essex lad.