I'm still struggling and not coping because of pain as usual.
But some good news is my utrasound results are in but the receptionist was not allowed to tell me the results as my GP had not stamped which option to choose - 'See GP', 'All Clear', 'YOUR GOING TO DIE!' At least I know it's not the later because no one is in a hurry. "You're going to have to ring back tomorrow as doctor is out this afternoon deary" came the cheerful reply. This is MY LIFE your talking about and I'm not cheerful. I'm quite unhappy and near to depression actually...........
Or am I depressed?
I cover myself with this witty chatter and make believe that all is fine but when I'm down I'm very down.
My husband said something to me this morning and it hurt me. I'd told him at the weekend that I need more support and what he did basically threw that back me with venim. Actually I need more than support. I need a husband. So I'm sad.....more than sad but I put that smile on my face and everyone thinks I'm happy.
About Me
- Wiglet
- Wo said life was easy? I have a hulking great pain monster jumping up and down on my back every morning. Once zapped with strong vodka he's a pussycat. In brief, read on further for info, I have a spinal condition which leaves me in severe pain. I am a wife, mother and school governor too. I love my life, detest the pain monster! Medical bit. Check on links for further info. I have Spina Bifida Occulta. It is genetic and I was born with it. I also have Tethered Cord Syndrome, again genetic, again I was born with it. I have had 2 spinal surgeries and now have a mass of nerve damage causing a mass of nerve pain. I possibly have CRPS but no definite diagnosis. Was diagnosed with hypothyroidism late 2006 and IBS in 2007. Also have damage to my bladder and bowel because of the abnormal spinal cord and nerves. The last diagnosis is 'Chronic Pain Syndrome'. That one covers a multitude of sins. The winter months have been hard and I wonder if I am deteriorating again? Kinda scary so my blog becomes my best friend. I take a lot of medication and so have become a hobbling encyclopaedia of knowledge on the subject.
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