Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Funny news

Hostage released for pizza

An Australian prison guard held hostage for two days was released after a ransom demand for pizzas was met.

Up to 20 inmates at the Risdon Prison in Hobart, Tasmania, seized the guard in a protest over conditions in the maximum security jail.

Initially they made 24 demands to authorities, but eventually gave up their hostage after agreeing to 15 pizzas, Coke and garlic bread instead.

"At midnight, the final sticking point with the inmates was that they were requiring pizzas to be delivered. Our staff member was negotiated out with the delivery of 15 pizzas," Graeme Barber, Tasmania's director of prisons, told The Advocate newspaper.

The guard is recovering from his ordeal at home.


I found this at http://www.broadcaster.org.uk/section2/jokes/funnynews.html
My son has a passion for pizza but that is slightly taking the pi** don't you think!

Talking of my son, he's on day two of his school trip and today I believe it's orienteering and kayaking but for the life of me I've forgotten the fun activity for this evening. The kids have got so much crammed into the next few days that they won't have time to miss home and my son's been away for 6 days at cub camp before and I doubt he'll miss me.

I'm still struggling with the pain monster and it's been a real battle to beat it this time. The weather has turned and it is VERY cold and it could have something to do with that as it did last time? My pain also became bad this time after I went out on my scooter and decided to drive up and down the silly curbs which I should not have. That is NOT good for my back but I can't see how that caused this problem? I'm always asking myself why I have these flare ups and I can never see the reasons and it's so frustrating. I used to have a life and now I have nothing - Except I cannot think that way......I have my kids and husband and I have to keep going because of them.

As Winston Churchill once said, "If you are going through hell keep going"

Monday, February 05, 2007

Days all muddled and bird flu

Yesteray was that day!

The official my mum departed this earth.........No wonder I've been all over the place and no wonder my son has too? We are both spiritual people and I think that was the reason for the fact that we both suffered ill health? We all miss my mum and dad greatly and I think from the amount of times they're mentioned in my blog that's quite obvious.

Today I'm still in bed and still feeling the effects of my pain monster. I hate all of this I really do and today was 100 times worse because my son was going away on a school trip for a week and I really could have done with seeing him off. I don't suppose he needed me though!

The big news in the UK today is BIRD FLU. http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/6330167.stm I don't think Bernard will be saying 'Bewdiful' today! (Sorry silly joke for all us Brits)
Apparently supermarkets are expecting people to suddenly to stop eating chickens/turkeys and the like because of this even though it can not be passed to humans? Yes that's as human beings for you, mad as fruitcakes.

The other interesting fact is that this is the the MONDAY that people are most likely to take off sick? Especially if you're a turkey! (Couldn't help it) So for all of you feeling ill and that includes me, dose yourself up and get yourself better; for those you faking it - SHAME ON YOU you clever bunch. I used to fake illness all the time at school......That was the worse time of my life. Now I'd wish for a day of normality!

Lastly
ON THIS DAY IN HISTORY
1953 Sweet (Candy to those over the pond) rationing Ends in the UK
The rationing of confectionery ends after 10 years, with schoolchildren first in the queue for unlimited sweets and chocolate.
How would I have survived back in those days!

2003, some names of those who passed

January 12 Maurice Gibb tragically after suffering a heart attack during stomach surgery.

February 1 The crew of the shuttle Columbia, Rick Husband, William McCool, Michael Anderson, David Brown, Laurel Clark, Kalpana Chawla, Ilan Ramon who was carrying with him a miniature Torah scroll of a Holocaust survivor.

February 4 My mum, a wonderful mother, a fantastic oma and once met never forgotten died suddenly overnight on either the 3rd or 4th of February. She went to be with my dad which where she wanted to be.

July 8 Laleh and Ladan Bijani, conjoined twins who were joined at the head who at 29 decided to face the gruelling surgery to separate them.

July 18 Dr David Kelly, had been at the centre of a row between the British Government and the BBC about the use of intelligence reports in the run up to the war against Iraq. He said the government had "sexed-up" its dossier on Iraq to boost public support for the war. He accused the government of inserting a claim into the dossier that Saddam Hussein was capable of deploying weapons of mass destruction within 45 minutes
Dr Kelly took his own life and I don't suppose we shall ever now the real 'truth' will we?

July 27 Bob Hope, American icon and legendary comedian Bob Hope died, just two months after celebrating his 100th birthday. He died in his sleep at home in Toluca Lake, California, with his family at his bedside. Even the Queen, who had met British-born Hope many times, sent a private message to his widow, Dolores, who was married to Hope for 69 years. The couple had four children.

August 16 Idi Amin War criminal. Do not want to say any more here except what goes around comes around (I hope)

September 11 Anna Lindh The Swedish Foreign Minister died in hospital from stab wounds inflicted in an attack while she was shopping in a Stockholm department store.


September 12 Johnny Cash One of the great legends of country music, he was 71.
He was rushed to hospital in Nashville, Tennessee, with respiratory failure, but doctors could not save him.
Cash, an icon of American country music since the 1950s, had been dogged by illness in recent years, and suffered from a nervous condition similar to Parkinson's disease.


These are just a few names. Many more lost their lives in 2003.........A little prayer for them all.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Today..........................

Four years ago today was the day my mum passed from this earth. I spoke about that in the last entry and I can't be sure of the date because she was on her own and had chosen not to talk to me. Drink had changed every aspect of her being and I hated that part of her......

It's not sure whether my mum passed away on the 3rd or 4th of February? The coroner could not be sure either.

I wonder if this is why I'm in so much pain today? My emotions could be dictating how my body is feeling?

Mum was a lonely woman who hated herself and never learnt to love herself. I know that is an old cliche but truly speaking my mum was never happy. To the outside world they saw this smiling woman who got on with everyone but then she had this sting in her tail - A true Scorpio! She gave to others willingly however she expected others to give to her and if they did not then OMG they were in trouble. "HOW DARE THEY?" Would be her words. I remember life at home being hard because of her resentments. She'd always expect something back and if it never happened, she'd shun that person/people or make them feel bad. Anyone reading this for the first time and not reading any past entries would not think she's an absolute horror but NO, life made my mum this way. She was a good woman and circumstances dictated why she felt so bad about herself and she never got the chance in her own life to come to terms wilth all of her daemons. I loved her and still do.

Mum never knew her father and her mother, my gran who I always got on with better, never spoke of him. When she found out he was a nasty monster, it broke my mum into pieces. My mum had to hold herself together and make sure the outside world did not see that she was falling apart inside and she did a good job of it. Only my family and maybe a few close friends knew how hurt she really was. Mum lied to so many people and made up stories to cover up her feelings. Drink was her best friend throughout her heartaches and when the going got tough the bottles got bigger.

Mum was able to stop drinking however something would happen to cause the evil daemons to come out and so would the bottle. First mum drank coke and Bacardi. Every night mum would pour herself one drink and then another and another. I remember mum telling me that she was having lemonade and coke and that's what I thought it was for many years. I didn't realise my mum had a drink problem and when I did I tried to get her to face it didn't work........My dad wasn't on the same side as me and so it was impossible. Also at this point, mum was beginning to get problems with her stomach. She was not only drinking but taking medication which contained non steroid anti inflammatories. The combination was causing my mother's stomach wall to erode. She didn't know but I guess she knew there was some sort of problem because of the pain and not being able to eat? I don't really know how dad felt? I talked to him a few times but he would blank me or tell me "It's mum's choice". I found that hard......

My dad and mum had a relationship that worked for them and dad was what I now know called an 'enabler' he knew full well that mum's alcohol addiction and supported her with it because life without her drinking was for him unbearable. He walked out on her and me once when I was about 15; I remember it well. He came back the next day and even though it was my mum's fault, he took full responsibility for leaving. He loved her and that was that.
When dad was diagnosed with cancer, mum was full of guilt. She was thinking of divorcing dad at that time because of his mood towards her and she didn't realise it was because the cancer has spread to his brain. He had become a totally different man because of that disease and I'm so grateful that once diagnosed there was not much longer for him to suffer. My mum loved my dad and I heard some members of my family state that she didn't love him because of the way she was with him......Oh she loved him dearly but I don't think she could bear the thought of life without him and so it was easier for her to try to forget he was dying. Dad spent his last 4 days in the hospice and mum visited him 3 times. The first time I took her, and dad told her to "go home, you hate these places". I had to practically drag her to the hospice two days later but I HAD to because my dad was nearing the end. She spent a minute by his bed and ased me to take her home. I took her home and came straight back to be with my dad as my feelings were different and I HAD to be with him. She looked after me by phoning up the hospice. She made sure I had the support while I held my dad's hand while he left this life the following morning. Mum did not get there in time......Dad passed away too quickly in the end.

Mum had a different relationship with my daughter and my daughter adored my mother. I've probably spoken about this before but I'm feeling rough today and in bed and in the mood to let out my emotions. The reason I couldn't allow my kids to stay with my mother anymore was because my aunt and uncle and turned up (expected) at mum's house and found the kids (aged 6 and 4) at the time, were on their own downstairs, while mum was in a drunken stupor upstairs. My aunt and uncle brought the kids home and I can't explain my feelings because on one hand I was angry but on the other I was upset. I was angry that I had believed my mum would NOT drink with the kids around, oh and mum had left her drink on the side table too and the children could have drunk that. I was also upset and let down. My husband wanted to spea to my mum about it as he was positively fuming! I didn't want to let him and yet again as many a time before, I stopped him from doing so.

I didn't tell my mum for some time why I wasn't letting the kids stay with her (Yes it was obvious) but in the end we had a row and it came out. I told her I would let the kids stay but I would be staying too. OH HELL!!!! She didn't like that. Again I felt offended because it was almost as though she was saying "I don't want you but I'll accept your kids". Mum did not want to know.

My children never stayed with my mum again and I couldn't tell the children the real reason until a while after my mum died. Yes my children were devastated by this and I can only think they blamed me for an unknown reason?

New Years Eve 2002, I had a rotten day. My ankle was throbbing - The early days of my TCS starting up and I then developed a splitting headache too. We had made plans to go up to mum's house for an early supper and some fireworks too. We'd had a great Christmas and all was fine but the previous weeks were hard as mum had had a row with her brother and sister over dad's old moterbike and the sale of it to my cousin. Mum told one side of the story and demanded that I was not to call my aunt about it (So's not to hear that side of the story I guess). I'm very close to that aunt and of course I spoke to her about it and then I spoke to my uncle too. After that I decided to keep out of the whole incident and told mum that was my plan - No taking sides but I had decided to try to bring everyone back together. The problem was that drink had clouded mum's judgement and memory.......So back to New Year's Eve. The aunt who I am close to lives far away but was down visiting her husband's relatives and was staying close by. She'd phoned up and asked if we were free and asked me if we'd like them to come over? Of course I said yes. I found out that this aunt was not going to visit my mum later on and that upset me however it is my aunt's right and she was upset and angry too. I new I would face a dilema later in the day though because I WAS going to visit my mum and how was I going to keep it quiet about us seeing my aunt and uncle? Mum was no doubt going to be upset and take it out on me or my family when we saw her later but when I was spending time with my aunt and uncle I didn't care because I love them to bits as do my kids.

We went to my mum's house and my head was hurting and I had a row with my husband on the way up there and I felt terrible. I asked the children to try not to mention about the aunt and uncle's visit however that was impossible for my little lad. He loves my uncle and his silly tricks and I knew as soon as he opened his mouth I was in trouble. "We saw uncle L......." My mum went quiet and refused to talk to anyone after that and to be honest my head started to crash even more. I told my husband that enough was enough and it was not fair on the kids to let them put up with this atmosphere and we were going home. I washed up and 8.30pm we headed home. I gave mum a hug but she wasn't in the mood. I has explained and said I hadn't wanted to say anything because I did not know my aunt and uncle were down. I had heard one of my mum's other sisters say she had invited this siter over on New Year's Eve and explained that to my mum and then I thin this is how mum made up a crazy story? This is where drink played it's part again - What I was not to now was mum had made up a story that we had left early because we were going to a 'party' at her other sister's house?????
Point one, Not true! I think my aunts were meeting up but mum never goes out in the evening anyway.
Point two, The plan was to ALWAYS to come up for 2-3 hours, have some bangers and mash and fireworks which we literally had!
Point three, My head hurt so badly that I felt sick and when I got home I physically was sick.

I phoned mum a couple of days later and she wouldn't speak to me. I then tried again and again I was given the cold shoulder. I constantly asked her what had I done "YOU NOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE!" No I didn't know because mum's imagination had worked overtime and none of it was true........
I last spoke to my mother 3 weeks before she died and her last words were

"I never want to speak to you again"

To true but I wish she had not made up that false story because I would then have had that 3 weeks. The last year I had with her was the BEST year I have ever had with her. It was almost as though the barriers were gone and we became friends. I DID love my mum and only wish she didn't love the bottle more than she loved me.

I hope my dad was with her as she went on to the next world.......................I truly do.

A policewoman came to my door at 9.50pm and I knew what she was going to say. She suggested we went and sat down but I told her "My mum's died hasn't she"

"Yes".

Friday, February 02, 2007

Now an underactive thyroid!

I've just spoken to my GP and if I didn't need another problem to add to my woes I've now got a thyroid issue to deal with. My acupuncturist told me that she felt acupuncture could deal with thyroid problems if caught early but obviously not for me. Here's a link to some info on Hypothyroidism. http://www.medic8.com/healthguide/articles/hypothyroidism.html

Kids are home from school and no doubt my son will come home and ask to sleep at his mate's house. He always does on a Friday night. My daughter needs some time and energy spent on her as I spoke with her head of year yesterday and there are issues with her attitude towards work. She's self sabbotaging - I think that's the best way to discribe it? Her head of year is a great teacher and great with the kids too. I only phoned her because of something that happened for the past two days at lunch times and it needed to be dealt with and then of course she mentioned that she had tried to teach my daughter yesterday for the first tim in year nine. She'd taught her in year eight and year seven and my daughter was always eager to please but now she's more eager to play on her mobile phone in some lessons; (why arn't the teachers taking the phones away?) or brushing her hair! My daughter's head of year said it was such a shame as my daughter isn't naughty and she's a lovely girl - just silly!!!!
My son is a totally different personality but that said my daughter never lost a brand new school fleece a week after I had brought it! Yes the school are unable to locate it and I'm bloody angry. I asked my son if the children's fleeces were checed at school today seeing as they all have the same ones but he said NO. I'm not HAPPY!

Bacon and eggs

I quite fancy a plate of bacon and eggs don't you?

Sounds like a nice way to start the day but alas hubby is painting my daughter's wardrobe (closet) doors and he's taken them off and painting in the kitchen. He can't move in her room as it's more like a pigsty than a bedroom. The weather is very unpredictable also and so hubby cannot paint outside.........So my bacon and eggs have to wait for a little while yet.

My plans for today are for a slow day. I shall try to get on with a few bits and bobs if I can that is. I went to te hydro pool yesterday and enjoyed a natter and chat with my friends there. It made me feel more comfortable about a few things which were troubling me and also I was able to help out a couple of friends who needed help from me. We look after each other and it's a good Thursday morning group. We have new ladies who come and go and some stay and we get to know them. That's when we find out phone numbers and if that person does not attend the pool, we often phone them to see if they are OK. It's a great little group of caring women (and sometimes men) who look after each other.

Sometimes it is a great joy just to listen to someone we love talking. Vincent McNabb

Friday has come around so quickly and it's GROUNDHOG DAY over in America. http://www.groundhog.org/ We don't have this in the UK but of course we tend to follow what our American cousins do and I have no doubt we will follow at some point. Tomorrow is also the anniversary of the day my mum passed away; the official date is the 4th as that is when she was found and the coroner said it was best to keep it as that. Mum was last spoken to on the 2nd Feb in the late evening. She was very poorly and in a lot of pain and had spoken to her neighbour about how she was feeling.........Going to be a tearful couple of days if I think to much.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

MRI and a quote of the day

I phoned up this morning to get a date for my MRI and low and behold instead of being a 6-12 month wait I'm on a maximum 15 week wait! WOW, I'm obviously more of a concern to my neurosurgeon than I thought?

I was given a date of next Thursday but there lies a problem.......It's the day before my BIRTHDAY. I'm going away on Friday and Saturday with hubby for a lovely romantic (I hope) weekend and I do not want to have the 6 hour round drive wearing me out beforehand and so that date would never do. I've asked for four weeks later as I know hubby will be onhand to drive me there.......I'm dreading the thought of the MRI already......however it may answer some questions? In other countries and MRI is standard post operatively but not here? We know here it's because of cash flow and the lack of it but I've had ten months of pain, increasing pain meds and decreasing bladder control. Surely this is an indicator to something not being right? I don't suppose another month will make any difference to my MRI date as I'm not planning to have any further surgery no matter what my surgeon says.

Changing the subject, anyone that knows me knows I tend to overthink things and that said, I found this quote:

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend.-- Albert Camus

I used to be a member of a forum and I became a popular member amoungst some but with others there was a certain amount of jealousy. That's how I see it anyway, I could be wrong? I found I had some people who looked towards me and then followed and had no personality of their own but of course I ALWAYS had true friends who have stayed with me. Amongst those followers were the jealous ones who tried to bring me down. I cannot understand those sorts of people? Why are they out there? Why do they behave in such a way?

That quote hits a few points because I'm not a natural leader but I have become one in my volunteer role without trying and apparently I am good at it yet I didn't want to be in that role innitially. I'm glad for a break this year as it's given me a chance to recharge my batteries.....But then there is the friendship part of life? I'm definately my own person there but love my friends dearly.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Wireless

Hmmmmmmm! Yipppppeeeeeeeee! I'm wireless free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes I've finally worked it out and connected the router. My laptop is supposed to be a wireless model however it doesn't seem to be woring that way without the router? What the heck it is now. I've got to get my daughter a wireless card for her PC and then that's it, we have our own network.

My daughter is going to have her assessment with the counselor tomorrow. She's nervous about it but this is something that needs to be done and is right for her. I hope she is as courageous as possible and takes me in her pocket (which is where I've strategically placed myself). It's tough being 13 and then having a mum who's become disabled hasn't helped. I'm also quite a bossy cow and I guess that's also a hard thing for her to take as she's fairly laid back. The other part of her life that I think has affected her more than she's willing to say is the loss of my mother. It's been four years on the 4 February and my daughter and mum were close. My daughter did not understand of my mother's drinking as there was no way I was going to tell my kids about that. I have spoken to them now and I don't know how much they've taken in nor how mow much they want too?
Maybe this is a problem, maybe not?
Daughter is home from orchestra..............
Love her.

Monday, January 29, 2007

Not wireless yet!

I have this lovely new wireless computer yet I still am not able to use it as a wireless computer?

I'm in talks with the technical department of Hewlett Packard and I hope to have this sorted as soon as possible because it would be soooooo helpful.

Not been around for the last few days as I've had a couple of up and down days. Saturday was good but then it started........That monster started to beat me up again! Sunday I woke feeling rather poorly and stayed in bed all morning. I knew I had a course today on 'keeping children safe' (more on that later), I had this course so I knew I must tae it very easy on Sunday or else I would not be able to enjoy the morning. I did however start cooking the dinner although the hubby finnished it off and it was masterpiece by all accounts.

The course this morning was updating my skills on child protection issues. As a school governor, I and my fellow govs, have quite a large responsibility to ensure that child protection policy is being followed. I've been the CP governor for about 4 years now and I know all is fine at our school and felt quite pleased.....if a little smug to hear how other schools were maybe not as on the ball as ours. On the other hand, does that mean maybe some children could be slipping through the net? I hope not! The course today was for Headteachers and for the appointed child protection governor because the overall policy has changed and in turn this means practically EVERY SINGLE POLICY in school also has to change to take into account the new rules. I'm not the Chair this year and I'm thinking as the chair which I mustn't.......I must phone her later though and fill her in. The only problem with sitting for 3 hours (with a little break) is my back is so sore. I'm lying on my recliner which even though it's brand new - NEEDS REPAIRING! I don't know........

Any news? Not really. My daughter is playing in a concert in March. This time it's in her capacity as part of the city junior wind band. I don't know if I said last time but she's also got a solo in the spring concert and that's part of her school orchestra. She very nervous about that one but I know she'll be a star. My son who is a bit of an over acheiver disappointed himself with hi mock reading exams - These are to do with exams he has in May. He wants to get level 5s across the board, English, Math and Science and the reading was a small part which he got upset about. I told him to do his best and if he did that then what was there to worry about? "I WANT A LEVEL 5 NOW MUM!" The silly thing is that a 4b is all he should be attaining - Not NOW in MAY!!!!! That's the average Joe score for an 11 year old in the UK. My son doesn't want average; he wants level 5s so that he can get into the masterclass at senior school next year but that's going to be tough. He could find that there is a year of very intelligent children and he misses out? I've been telling him that it does not matter except it does to him. Masterclass means he will be fast tracked and that's what he wants........So THANK THE LORD! He easily scored a Level5 in math and lets just hope his science is just as good or I'm going to have more gentle comforting to do.

Got to try and check some emails before I can't stand my back pain any longer - Oh also I'm on those strong antibiotics again for a UTI and I feel so sick. It must be the antibiotics because it's been ever since I started taking them and I remember having a similar reaction before but not this bad! Problem is that every time I eat, I feel sick. It stopped me having that gorgeous roast yesterday and I hate it AAARRRRGGGHHH!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

New laptop and still and snowy day


Second post of the day as lots to say.

I have a NEW LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The other two were driving completely around the bend.

I'm relieved to have a new one and it's great ......no.......challenging to have a new keyboard as I keep spelling everything wrong but what the heck, I'll get used to it eventually. As I said on my last entry it is a beautiful snowy day here in southern UK. http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/in_pictures/6293741.stm

We are being told that there is more to come along the south coast with my region experiencing the worst of the weather. It's so unusual for us, that said the snow has mostly gone from the pavements and roads (thankfully). The only problem we have in the UK is that everything grinds to a halt when we have a bit of snow. My husband worked last night and he got on the train at 7.18am for the 40 minute journey. He phoned me at 7.55am and said the train was going at a snails speed and he would not be home to get my son to school! Oh hell panic stations. It also meant that I had to rearrange my doctor's appointment (the second blood test to check to see if my thyroid is working OK). Finally my poor hubby walked in the door at 9.45am. He normally arrives home any time between 7.50am and 8.10am........ To say he was tired is un understatement.

I have some of my governor work which I must get on with. It's good for my spirit and I feel much happier now I am in communication with my friends again. I had a telephone conversation with one friend yesterday who has had a terrible situation befall her. I won't be talking about it here but I know she reads my blog and I'm sending her my love and thoughts too. Actually I#m sening all of my friends my love because you all know you mean so much to me. It's hard when I can't get onto my email and the computer issues brought me down. I wonder if the second computer had a virus as well as a broken socket? It's still not been sent away and so I don't know the reasons for this? As the socket is under the warranty, we can have that done for free but I'm going to get the computer looked at for the other reasons. Its either virus OR overload. The memory was small as it was brought for me as a cheap christmas pressie - Not that it was CHEAP! Laptops have come down in price and they are so much more better value for money.

I'm going to try and give a tip of the day or a recipe or try to have something special to my blog entries to make them more exciting? I haven't thought about it much yet so forgive me for the first one.

CEZZY'S INTERNET SAFETY TIPS
Seeing as I've been a victim of crazies, stalkers and people who like to pretend they are six or seven people, I thought I'd just put these little tips here for those who'd like to read them. Bye for today. X


PROTECTING YOUR SAFETY
Never give your password to anyone for any reason
Be cautious about giving out personal information
Make your password hard to guess
Change your password regularly
Use a mix of numbers and letters in your password
Protect your computer with a firewall and virus software
Don't open any email attachments from people you don't know

SHOPPING ON THE WEB
Visit www.internic.net to see who owns the site
Check out web companies with the Better Business Bureau
Don't give out credit card number unless site is secure
Secure site will have "lock" symbol at bottom of page
Don't give personal info unless a reputable company
Look for the company's return policy before ordering
File any complaints with the Better Business Bureau

Let it snow....and more!

I haven't downloaded any new smilies onto this new laptop yet (Oh yes there is lots to tell) but if I had I would be eagerly putting SNOW SNOW SNOW here today.

The south of England has been covered with more snow than I can remember for a good couple of years. It's jolly cold too and my poor cleaning lady has just arrived fro her short walk from her house frozen to the bone. Two 'cuppas' later (cups of tea) and a good chat about Big Brother and we're both feeling more chilled out but in the metaphorical sense.

My blog needs to give a mention to the English celebrity Big Brother because anyone who knows me knows I LOVE BIG BROTHER! I'm an absolute addict whether it be the normal version which runs in the summer or the charity version every January. This year's celebrities have hit the headlines all over the world with the 'racism row' and I hope that is now dying down at least until some of the other housemates come out. Jade Goody, was the first housemate to be kicked out as a result of the racism row and she's been on nearly every single chat show crying and asking Shilpa Shetty's parents for forgiveness. I've put some links below and for those who are reading my blog in other parts of the world and have not heard of all the furore and IF you want to know more, please go and check the links out. I've put four to try and give a more balanced view when it comes to the jade heated argument and apologies afterwards. What it does not do though is talk about the underlying fact that of course racism exists! BUT I also believe Jade would have reacted the same way had Shilpa been a white person so what would it had been called then? Straight forward bullying that's what!

http://www.hindu.com/2007/01/24/stories/2007012402481600.htm
http://www.zeenews.com/articles.asp?aid=349195&archisec=ENT&archisubsec=1
http://www.rediff.com/movies/2007/jan/22shilpa.htm
http://www.channel4.com/bigbrother/housemates/housemate_news.jsp?id=16

My own view is this. We have this show which is HUGELY popular with our youngsters in the UK. Celebrities that choose to go on a show such as BB know what they are letting themselves in for. I've never seen a celeb take n a show such as that who is at the top of their career with anything to loose. It is always the opposite.
The producers of BIG BROTHER knew exactly what they were doing when they stuck those weird and wondrous personalities in that house and they knew that certain ones would not mix. They knew that Danielle for instance is a 23 year old spoilt little brat but does she know that when she comes out of the house that she has lost EVERYTHING because of her words and actions.

Back to Jade. I've watched her on a four shows since she's come out of the house and I wish her agent would allow her to have some space away from the TV screen now and be reunited with her kids. It's a disgrace that her windows have all been smashed because of a TV show? Last year there were TWO bullies on BB and I cannot recall hearing anything about either of these two? PETE BURNS AND GEORGE GALLOWAY. How quickly the British public forget these.
The difference this time is because of the question "Was this racist?" This is a real worry for me because I could be considered racist then as I quite often copy my friends accents just as the housemates did and this was ONE aspect which was Jade's downfall. We have many people coming over to this country and this enables labour to become cheaper and my husband has himself said "I wish sometimes 'they' (when he sees something on the TV) would go back to their own country". Does that make him racist? I've NEVER considered myself racist nor does my husband. He has colleagues who use nasty terms to refer to Asians and I won't use the words here and my husband hated repeating those words when we talked about it yesterday. This issue has created a countrywide debate and that is a good thing. I've always tried to bring my kids up with tolerance and that doesn't just mean race, that means disability, age, height etc. We all come in differing shapes and sizes don't we?

Jade's only mistake was talking before she engaged her brain. She's not the sharpest tool in the box and SHE HERSELF would admit to that and NO ignorance can not be an excuse all the time but in this case it certainly can.

HOWEVER, when Jade's boyfriend comes out I hope she gets rid of him quicker than you can say big brother because he's a nasty piece of scum and yes he is racist! (IMHO)
Danielle - Again stupid and immature and I cannot make my mind up on her. I don't think she deserves to gain any credibility from this show and she will certainly will not now. I hear she has lost her footballer boyfriend and lost her modelling contract too......Silly girl.
Jo - the last one in the act is the one I cannot make my mind up about. It was almost as though she allowed herself to be manipulated into the game and became a 27 year schoolgirl. Almost like she felt she had to become a bully or be bullied? She's had panic attacks and is terrified of what is going on in the outside world even though the housemates have no real idea. I guess the fact that Jade had no crowds waiting for her told them that it was pretty grim!

Who do I want to win? I'd still like CLEO however SHILPA deserves the UK to tell her that we treat our guests from other countries with respect and we do not bully as a rule. Yes there is a minority and that is what I am trying to say here. I'm willing to stand up for the majority and say SHILPA TO WIN!!!!






Saturday, January 20, 2007

low battery

quick post

LOW BATTERY and lead is not working!


ARRGGHH!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Oh for goodness sakes!

Oh I apologize for a bloody mess but I've not been able to get on the net for the past 24 hours as I've downloaded Microsoft internet seven or whatever you call it and that and McAfee updates have been driving me crazy!!!!!!! Current Mood - Depressed

I could not turn my computer OFF yet I could not get onto the net? What a night. Still having problems finding my email and favourites and now have found my blog addy! Current Mood - CuriousMaybe I shall find my email addy next?

In the meantime, I'm having a decent enough day. I have been to a governors meeting this afternoon which was wonderful and I set the headteachers objectives for next year. I enjoyed that one but the only problem was my partner in the job is a bit of a nightmare and he keeps saying things and blaming me. I almost thumped him but is was a professional set up. What a nightmare. Current Mood - Angry

So I'm home now and I'm topped up with my meds. My kids and hubby are at the dentist or should I say will finish soon. I'm worried my daughter will need a filling but hoping it's just a molar coming through. She's growing in every direction and her teeth are no different! My son should be OK or at least I hope so too. He had those four teeth out a few months back because of 'A plastic 6s'. That's when the number six adult teeth come through completely lacking in enamel. My son struggled on for quite some time before the pain kicked in and he had to have those teeth removed. The dental surgery would only take two teeth out at a time because they are such large teeth. We were told to wait two months in between the surgeries to give him time to get over it but my poor boy was in agony. I phoned up after a week and said; "Please help now?" Yes, my son recieved the help he needed. Shame he lost those teeth however his wisdom teeth will come through now without too much of a problem.

I've got to see the dentist.........I need help on that part as my nerve has gone again.........Silly isn't it? I can have spinal surgery but a dentist scares the hell out of me. I dare not tell my kids I'm so scared again and I had lost that fear??? A shot of vallium might help?

Off to find my email addy Email ........Just found my spell check!








Sunday, January 14, 2007

WOOOOOO HOOOOO!

Let's CelebrateMy clever little man! Current Mood Giggly
My son's team WON 6-4 and my super young son in his first official match scored the first try of the game! He saw one of the foward's was being targeted and the ball was free. No one was looking at my son who grabbed the ball and ran his socks off and went for the line. For those who do not know anything about UK Rugby Union you are as informed as I am??? I will attempt to inpart knowledge as I gain it later on. But there you go, my baby scored the first try and was ellated.
It was a good game by all accounts and the opposing team held on for dear life, and later on myDD found out why his team mates wear tight lycra shorts underneath their shorts. One of the lads from the opposition grabbed my lad's tender parts to stop him gaining another try.
I've already ordered a pair of lycra shorts. Winky
I'm in the middle of cooking dinner and I have rotten heartburn. The tummyache is moving upwards it would seem?
Need to catch up on emails and please forgive me friends IF I do not get a chance to fulfil what I want to do today. The kids have homework to complete too and I must ensure they have time on the internet too and I don't hog it all........Must also consider the cost of wireless internet and if this is more feasible for us? Problem is that my daughter will be on the net all the time.




Good luck

Pot Of Gold Best of luck to my son today who is playing in hs first rugby tournament.

My hubby has taken him and will be there to cheer him along. It's in a nearby town and my poor husband is shattered as he worked last night and didn't sleep much yesterday either. He has tonight off thankfully and that will help his 'knackerdness' (he he).

Roast chicken for dinner today. I'm feeling pretty good and with the assistance of my daughter, I will be able to prepare it for the boys. If I sit down and not carry anything heavy, I'll be OK.

Harry Potter and the prisoner of Azkaban was on the TV last night and the kids and I watched it all together .........and jumped out of our skins at one point. It was actually funny afterwards because we had this silly image of us sitting there and then - "OOOOOOOOH". This silly teacher at Hogwarts put her hand on Harry's shoulder and that was the cause of our fear???? Sounds silly to say that but you needed to see it to realise why we were all so jumpy.

Sitting here with a painful tum. Don't know where it has come from? 'The bowels of windiland'!
Gas (Sorry couldn't resist but I think that might help)

Off now.........At a 100 miles per hour if that windy problem keeps up>>>>>>>>>>>







Saturday, January 13, 2007

A recipe

Hello Daisy!

I need to ask you a favour? Can't remember your blog address and I REALLY want to read it.
Big hugs and much love to you as always and you know I think the a great deal of you. Others have tried to cause havoc and I cannot believe that grown woman (and men) will behave in such a childish manner on the net? It really is quite shocking.

My blog entry today will be about....what I had for supper.

Lovely recipe here for you.

Pasta - One that likes to be coated. We (My daughter and I is the 'we' today but she didn't have the same sauce because OH NO my kids both wanted differing dinners didn't they? Why on earth cook three meals? I told them "FINE, if you want different meals, you cook them".....
Anyway, cook the pasta however take off a minute or two from the cooking time from what it says on the packet. Personally I dislike my pasta two 'squishy'.

Salmon fillet cooked to your liking, again I'm stating my personal choice here which is to heat a pan/skillet and add olive oil and a nob of butter to the pan. Cook the salmon skin side down first and after 30 seconds turn the heat down a touch. After a couple of minutes turn the salmon over and when it is nearly cooked take it out of the pan/skillet and put it in oven to keep warm while you cook the sauce.

Items required for sauce.
Capers
Petite Pois
Shallot - finely chopped
2 Glasses of White Wine
Creme Fraiche/sour cream)
Veg stock cube

Fry the shallots in olive oil on a medium heat. Add the cappers and wine and stock cube. I add the wine as I go along but that's my choice. What's next? ..........Oh add the petite pois now because you want to keep the green colour. When the wine is nearly evaporated, add the creme fraiche (a small tub is enough for two people). Add the sauce to the pasta then put the pasta in a pasta bowl then lay the salmon fillet on top.

One gorgeous Piggy's Fishy pasta.
Donde Esta La Pasta

Must go, I'm watching Harry Potter with my lad and it's a wicked film (or so you say when you are 10).







Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Good luck to my daughter

Clarinet Good Luck Clarinet My daughter officially starts the state/county junior youth orchestra today!

She was asked before Christmas if she would like to join and she went along to a course which led to a concert on 30 December and I was so proud to see my darling daughter playing (even if I couldn't really see her head above the violinists!!!!) I knew she was there didn't I?

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Since posting the above my daughter has come home with her 'finger injury'. I had a phone call earlier from her school to explain that she had hurt her finger on some sort of machine and her finger had been still bleeding after some considerable time. One of the school first aider's had managed to stem the bleeding or so she hoped, and phoned me at that point; the deal was that my daughter was going to report back at break if her finger was still causing her concern and we heard nothing more until my girly came home with a delightful bandage upon her digit. I've taken a look and it's nasty cut which goes into her nail. Her fingertip is tingling and her finger itself feels "different to the others". My own experience with peripheral neuropathy tells me the warning signs with that phrase! We're going to keep an eye on her and I don't think she needs hospital treatment anyway which would frighten without me. She hates her dad having to take her anywhere!!!!! My daughter still intends to go along to the orchestra later and will, with the appropriate size bandage, play her clarinet tonight. I was told that she has the best talent out of all the clarinetists and she'll fit in easily and that reminds me, I must sort out her money for a tour she's doing too (brain fart there).

Long blog entry today. Hope all who read this are well?

Hugs to all.





Monday, January 08, 2007

Tired

Hi all.

Had another mad moment and decided to tidy our my daughter's cupboards, or clossets to my American friends.
Winky She's a mucky pup and throws her clothes in and hopes they might walk out in the right order but of course they do not. I've also taken out the clothes we both decided we would keep back for next summer because there is no way they will fit her. She's grown beyond all proportion and will need a fair few new bits to fill out her wardrobe - I hope only cheap ones!

I'm still awaiting news on my other laptop? I'm not sure if it can even be repaired? In the meantime I shall sit/lie here and wait. I've had a nice day though and I've ordered tickets for BILLY ELLIOT, It's a show in London and we shall all go and stay down there for a couple of days in the Easter vacation. My kids would like their cousins to come down in the half term and so that vacation is out. I like spending time with my kids as much as I can and when I feel good I want to enjoy that time. Can't wait!





Sunday, January 07, 2007

Rugby Sunday

FreezingIt's a cold one today and my kids are both out there doing there things. My daughter is riding ponies and my son tried out for the local rugby team and was offered a place in a tournament next week! He's thrilled to bits but I'm just a tad worried because of the fear element. He had his gum shield in and still cut his gum. He was bashed and I imagine bruised by the morning but he loves it. He loved it at school except it was 'tag rugby'; this is full contact rugby, a totally different ball game (excuse the pun).

I'm still awaiting my old computer back and running on this old one. I hope to have it back shortly and then I can communicate with my buddies better. I feel cut off and it upsets me greatly. I've had a tearful day and maybe that is why I'm worrying about my son and rugby more than I would under normal circumstanstances. I've had some tears about my parents because this time of year is so hard for me. It's full of memories and sadness because I those dates of 11 December, dad's death, 18 January, weeks after my father died, his mother passed away; 26 January my mother's death and 4 February only 5 days before my own birthday, my mother died. So I don't like this time. I find it hard to cope with and those around me don't want to hear all the time about this do they and I don't think they would understand? It's been seven years since I lost my dad and it will be four years next month since mum died. My tears today and emotions were just as strong as they were when they died. I didn't have the best relationship with my mum however I loved her none the less. Dad was a martyr to put up with me and mum arguing! He was a wonderful man and I hope he was looking down and his grandson today with pride.

Tomorrow is Monday again. I'm trying to organise a night away next month for my birthday. Huby should be doing that but that's not what he does. We're also planning a trip with the kids to London to catch a show and do some other interesting bits we would not do at home. The show tickets cost more than the hotel at the moment as we like good tickets!

That's all for today.

Speak again soon.





Monday, January 01, 2007

Happy New Year (Computer Hell)

I'm hoping that Daisy will read this and pass it on to as many of my cyber budies as possible. I was hoping to use this laptop while my other one was on the fix it shop to send emails etc but this one is laiden with viruses and I dare not send anything to anyone! I'm sure you all understand.

It has taken me about 25 minutes to boot it up and get here and I'm having REAL problems with it but please be assured it is onlyt my computer giving me issues and I'm OK as is the family. We are all fine and enjoyed a great new year's eve with my in-laws yesterday. My MIL cooked turkey and veg brought it over and I cooked the potatoes and sweet potatoes. My son cooked the pudding and we had a fab lunch.

Last night we told the kids that we were agreeing to buy them pets this year and I would not allow my darling husband to go back on his word anymore. NO MORE! Those kids have been my little saviours on too many occassions and they deserve this.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ONE AND ALL!